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My dreams are f'n freaky
-- For instance, Tuesday night I had 12 different dreams that ALL woke me up throughout the night because I died or was about to die in them. One had me just laying down in my bed when one of those ghosts appeared from the dream a few nights back and he started squishing me or some shit because I could just feel pressure on my whole body. I was getting crushed and could see blood coming out of me and feel my bones cracking -- and the pain felt intense and very real. I woke before I died or died and woke up. Then in my next dream I was laying in my bed and started feeling electrocuted. I was shaking like crazy and I couldn't move or get it to stop...until I woke up again. I assume I died or was about to. Other dreams had me dying in a variety of other ways including getting crushed in my car in one of those compactors, getting shoved off my balcony by some unknown force, being at work when a quake hit and being crushed inside the building, getting beat to death by a bunch of hoodlums with baseball bats and crobars, and a few others. It was freaky because they all felt so vivid. And it sucked doubly because the constant waking up made me get no rest to speak of and I was dead tired at work all day Thursday and started getting sick because of it. Then last night I had a couple of dreams, where thanfully I didn't die, but people were just constantly annoying the fuck out of me. In the first, there were a bunch of parents with their kids in my room for a reason I don't know. Maybe I'm the new Michael Jackson or something. Well, the kids started making a huge mess of my room, throwing my DVDs around and just breaking shit. The parents did nothing, and I kept yelling to the parents to tell their kids to stop and yelling at the kids to stop. But the more I yelled, the more they destroyed. Eventually, I pulled out a gun and shot it in the air to get their attention. However, this didn't work so I just started shooting all the kids and their parents. In the next dream, I was just sitting at some table with a bunch of dudes that I didn't know when all of them started flicking cig ashes at me and burning me with them. The pain felt so damn real, too (maybe this was inspired by the fact that I burnt myself with a cig before going to sleep that night just cause I'm silly like that). I kept telling them to stop and asking why the hell they were doing it to me, but they just kept doing it over and over. I like could tell it was a dream for some reason this time so I started trying to do crazy shit and I started killing them with a beam that I would shoot out of my hand that would destory them just like the beams did in War of the Worlds (okay movie, though I don't think I'd recommend it to anyone to go out and see). The only problem was that when I killed one guy another would appear in his place and the cig burning would continue. I eventually woke up, felt sick to my stomach and start puking in the toilet.
Pictures from Friday night
-- The only downer about the photos is that I didn't get any pictures of the girls that I rolled because I try not to ask to take pictures with girls I'm trying to get with because doing so has historically broken rolls for me and I didn't want to risk it. So, the girls in the pics are mostly the ones I talked to that were with boyfriends or whatever. Anyway, you should check them all out just to see my 5 o'clock shadow, the hair I haven't cut in months, and my double chin. A short, but still great
Saturday night -- The plan was to get completely drunk and other things, play some videogames, and then watch Team America and 10 Things I Hate About You. We both started off with a vodka cranberry in a pint glass that was 2/3rds vodka and 1/3rd cranberry. We both downed it immediately and started playing Destroy All Humans for PS2, which seemed pretty cool. I'm guessing the fact that I was going on about an hour of sleep, was on both Xanax and Zoloft, and had eaten only two protein bars all day made me a quick drunk because that one drink hit me hard and quickly. While I was playing the game, Sam would explain to me the controls and things just weren't clicking. I kept getting my lefts and rights mixed up so he would tell me to press L1 to pick up something with my psychic powers or whatever and I'd keep hitting R1 and he'd be like, "Naw, L1, dude. Naw, L1. You're hitting R1. BWAAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA". And, umm, this happened at least three times. What even made it funnier to me was the fact that before we started playing we were watching some kind of reality show where they were showing drunk people getting caught by police and I was making fun of the fact that these drunks couldn't tell their lefts from their rights, couldn't say the alphabet, couldn't touch their noses, and couldn't touch the tip of the pen the officer was holding. I was boasting to Sam that no matter how much I drink I can do all that stuff....but I guess I can't remember that R1 is on the right side of the controller and L1 is on the left. Funny me. Anyway, we proceeded to finish off another two drinks that were 2/3rds vodka, as we completely emptied one of those HUGE bottles of Smirnoff all by ourselves in less than 20 minutes. After that we dabbled in some other things and bam...I was one crunk mother fucker. I made a lot of drunk dials telling everyone how much I loved them and then just passed the fuck out cold and I don't even think it was 9:30PM yet. So, umm, no sleep, no food, Xanax, Zoloft, lots of alcohol and other stuff = a very short night for Dave Z. It was fun, though, and I love Sam Mother Fuckin' Bishop like a brother! Not perfect, but I'll take
it --
An amazing Friday night -- The weirdest thing about it all was that the main thing I was doing was just making fun of myself. For instance, there was this one absolutely stunning woman that I approached and said, "please don't be offended by this, but you are one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen!" She smiled and said, "Awww, thanks, but why would I be offended by that?" For which I responded, "because I'm a fat ugly bastard and I don't even deserve to be in the same room as you let alone talk to you." She laughed, said I was so cute, gave me a kiss on the cheek and we talked about whatever for the next 10 minutes before I told her I had to go and proceeded to get her number. I was also going up to girls and saying things like, "let me be straight with you...I am NOT hitting on you and wouldn't dare do something like that." And then after a perplexed, "why's that?", I would follow with something like, "I wouldn't want risk ever getting you pregnant and contaminating your perfect gene pool with mine." I used this a few times and it always resulted in the girls saying how sweet and adorable I was and saying that we would make very cute babies. Cool, please sign me up! Other dumb ass lines that worked extremely well for some reason I can't explain include: "So what exactly does a guy as ugly as me have to do to get a girl as fine as your or is that just never gonna happen?", "Did you come here with any ugly girl friends cause you're way outta my league and I shouldn't even try talking to you.", and "Any chance you're a pretty girl that can actually look past my ugliness and see me for the great person I am?". It's weird, but just about anything and everything I said worked and got the girls to hug me, kiss me, praise me, hold me, and give me their phone numbers and email addresses. And this is all at my fattest and ugliest I've been since I first dropped down to 238 from 386 over two years ago. Once I get down to the 220s, I'm going to be un-fucking-stoppable.
A very trippy dream -- Anyway, in the dream I was laying down in my bed when all these freaky ass little creatures and ghosts appeared out of nowhere. I don't know if it was the fear causing it, but I couldn't move at all in my bed. The ghosts and freaky ass little creatures starts yelping and scraming at me and laughing and I just couldn't say or do anything. And then a bunch of them came up to my mattress and just started folding it on top of me like they were trying to make me into a burrito and suffocate me or something. I felt crushed and as hard as I wanted to push, I just couldn't. Eventually I woke up... However, here's what really freaked me the fuck out. ALL of the ghosts that were in the room -- not the freaky ass little creatures that were folding my mattress -- were still THERE. They were just standing there next to the foot of my bed, in my la-z-boy reclliner and a couple next to the side of my bed. I could see ALL of them. I immediately jumped up out of my bed and turned on the lights and then I could no longer see them. I turned off the lights to see if they'd re-appear, but they didn't. I'm guessing it was just me in some half sleep and my eyes were just playing tricks on me or whatever. Anyway, it was one trippy ass dream that felt extremely vivid and real. Regardless, more drunky drunky is planned for tonight. I'll be doing some pre-drinking before going out because I still don't have a dime to my name and then hit up Ruby Skye to check out Ferry Corsten. It should be fun. Then tomorrow night will be a guy's night in where we get drunk, give each other makeovers and watch 10 Things I Hate About You or She's All That.
It's another "Dear Dave"
-- Regardless of the reason, you should be pleased with the fact that I'm presenting you with a second "Dear Dave" over the course of three days. I know this shit used to get updated this frequently before, but it hasn't been for awhile so stuff it. The main topic of discussion is Elle, Jordanna and Avital, who were featured in my photos from the weekend with the "Miami Whores" picture update, but there are also a couple of other side topics discussed including more on dealing with women plus questions about what I'm working on (nothing's answered, duh). Oh, by the way... --
She's all grows up, she's
all grows up -- Just one of those days...
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Hoo-f'n-ray!!!
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A
brand new section! -- In today's "Dear Dave" update you'll get a handful of letters that I've decided to use from the past six weeks, so a lot of them may be very outdated. The subjects covered are as follows: My Miami whores, Korean Soccer Babe, Vida, Music Suggestions, Weight Battles, Me @ E3, What about the games?, Lisa Gleave zips?, My diabetes, Babes in driving school, Living life, PWND, Drunken emails, Auntie Mary Jane?, and Womenz Problemz. So, umm, go read it and shit and then send me some new emails. Especially if you got dating advice because I'm obviously an expert on that subject. Okay, I'm not, but it's fun answering those all things considered.
Anyway, the reason that I never put up pics immediately afterwards was that I was honestly quite disgusted with how I looked in them! Seriously, seeing me in these pics made me realize just how much weight I had gained over the past five or six months. It made me sick to my stomach and I didn't want to share the photos as a result. I'm over all that now that I'm actually having a great week on the diet and exercise front, so I'm gonna go ahead and share the photos from the weekend with the "Miami Whores" (inside joke...). Someone
explain this... -- However, I then realized that I had to go to work and I was freaking out about how to hide these big ass melons. I found a bit sweatshirt, but it didn't really fully hide them. However, it was the best option I had to I went in to work like that. I spent most of the day with my arms folded over my chest and was always extra careful to keep them hidden. Anyway, that was pretty much it. So, is this because I have big ole man titties or because I'm so fascinated with boooooo-b's? I don't know. EDIT: Oooooooh. I just remembered something else about the dream. It started with me seeing this spider on the wall. I flicked it with my finger and then it just landed on the wall further down about five feet. Then it liked looked at me and then leaped at my neck and then I passed out. This was followed by me waking with the boobies. Maybe the boobs were my superpowers? I don't know...
Almost
forgot... -- I'm multi-talented
and shit --
Porn no
more! -- Of course, I'm not completely porn free because I have several gigs of stuff way more hardcore than GGW on my laptop and even more burned onto various CD-Rs. I guess I prefer seeing the likes of Taylor Rain or Krystal Steal get boned up the ass than some random drunk college girl showing her goods for a few seconds on camera. I think I'd enjoy that shit more if I was there in person, to be quite frank. Which is why a Mardi Gras vacation is definitely something I'm considering for next year...especially if I'm in shape. Three down,
three more to go... --
Selling
my baby -- Five more to go --
The one and only.. -- A really bad week -- We'll see how it goes, but I'm thinking it's gonna be a good week for a couple of reasons. First, it's about 12 weeks away from my Florida vacation in September to visit Brandon again in Orlando and head down to Miami and I've decided to set a goal of getting down to 230 lbs by then from my current obnoxiously heavy weight of 274.5 lbs. Having a goal like this really helped me in the beginning with my first "thin" E3 and all. Second, I've finally come to the realization that I need to give therapy a chance. The drugs aren't stopping the anxiety attacks, work is still as stressing as ever, and I'm thinking that maybe a shrink will help. The last time I went it didn't work at all, but that was for a serious thing like my closest friend getting killed in a car accident while driving my car that I let her borrow. Talking to some therapist about how much it hurts to lose a friend and how I felt responsible for it because it was my car didn't do shit to help me. Only time has been able to cure those ails. However, the shit I'm dealing with now aren't quite as severe and enough people have told me I should give it a shot that I think I'm gonna do it. Not sure exactly when, because I don't have cash to do it now, but it'll be soon. Anyway, today was actually a great day on the diet front and didn't eat anything that I shouldn't have. I look at this as a good thing since I haven't had a perfect Monday since forever and a few weeks.
Buy my eBay shit! -- 2
Green Day Field Tickets @ SBC Park in San Francisco on 9/24
So, umm, fucking bid please. Bid early and bid oftne, maybe you can
walk away with some down ass shit and help me get a 9 inch penis in
the process. You'll be helping make the world a better place, if you
ask me. And, yeah, don't forget about the porn I'm selling below.
I've had no serious takers, so I've cut the prices of everything in
half and am willing to take heavily discounted bids on the whole lot.
Buy my porn! -- What we have here is eight Girls Gone Wild DVDs and nine Mystique Magazine DVDs (i.e. - the place with all the nudes of Lisa Gleave and Diana Kauffman). I'm looking to sell each DVD for $5 + $3.85 for USPS Priority Mail shipping to anywhere in the United States. If you're looking to buy in bulk, I'll cut you a deal on the shipping. You can click on the above images for a high-res look at the groups to see the specific titles of each. If you have any questions, email me. I would prefer payments to be made via PayPal.
She's my Destiny -- As a result, I decided to dip into Playboy's stable of hotties and name the mag's January 2005 Playmate, Destiny Davis, my newest Babe of the Week. Yeah, so give her a look. She has nice boobies and she's apparently okay with you looking at them, so go do some of that right now before she changes her mind! Lovin' the JEW -- I've also been listening to a lot of Coldplay to get ready for their new album that drops next week. I bring up Coldplay cause they're another of the bands that I only really started listening to because of you, the readers. So, I owe my love for Jimmy Eat World, Coldplay, and Tool to those of you that sent recommendations for each of them. Thanks! And if anyone else has suggestions about crap I should really give a listen, feel free to drop me an email. Loves ya! I love the 49ers! -- For more...check out the Archives © 2002 by Dave Zdyrko. All Rights Reserved. Without limiting the rights under copyrights reserved herein, no part of this web site may be reproduced in whole or in part in any form or medium without express written permission of the authors. ™ and © for all products, characters, and indicia related thereto which are contained herein are owned by the companies who market or license those products. If you have any comments or questions, please e-mail the Webmaster. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||