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Slow and steady -- As a result, I think I'm going to give up alcohol until my Florida trip unless I have friends visiting from out of town or I head on down to LA between now and then. I think the key will just to be to stay in on those nights where I know I won't have any fun completely sober so I won't be tempted by Satan anymore. Oh, yeah, my current weight is 258.5 lbs as of this morning. While getting down into the lower 230s by my Florida vacation in the beginning of September no longer seems like a reasonable goal anymore, I'm still happy with how things are going despite the minor hiccup with the alcohol Friday night, especially since that was pretty much my only mistake at all over the course of the past four weeks. You can't really argue with that considering I was having trouble making it through a single week let alone a full month for quite some time. All that said, the impatient side of me is really hoping for a good week soon where I'll do a nice drop in the area of 5 lbs or so. One or two weeks like that every now and then would do wonders for my overall spirit and motivation because these small drops are so hard to take because I know that if I have a bad week, it's so easy to put on in excess of 5 to 10 lbs.
Dave Toole is a toothless cunt! -- I think the fact that I was so f'n bored and there were soooo many fine honeys at the place made me given in to the temptations from Satan, aka Dave Toole. Luckily, I was able to resist his urges to get some food at 7-11 afterwards, so I'm happy with myself for that. He got a bunch of chips and some chicken wings or whatever, but I just drank water when I got home and then went to bed. Then in the morning, as revenge for his being a horrible friend the night before, I decided to torture one of his cats. I'd lock the cat away in the entertainment center and laugh at him while he was trying desperately to claw his way out through the glass or the wood. It was damn hilarious, even if a bit cruel. I'd leave the little dude in there for like 30 minutes, then let him out, then chase him around, grab him again and lock the pussy back up in the entertainment center again. It was very fun and I must say that I was inspired to do it because of the game I was playing. Which just so happens to bring me to the next topic... God of War is pure dopeness -- With the exception of two areas -- the section with the blades and the wooden planks where you fall off because of camera switches sometimes and the annoying as fuck part where you climb up the rotating wooden thing with the blades -- I really had no complaints or serious frustrations with the game. Also, it's not just some mindless hack 'n slash where you just fly through the game hitting only one button. I'm sure it can be done on the easier levels, but there's actually a lot of strategy and techinque needed to beat the enemies in the most efficient and rewarding manner possible and I was left quite impressed by the depth that was offered. This seems to stand out even more when you play the thing in God mode, which is its hardest difficulty setting that opens up after you beat it the first time. I'm not sure if I'm up to it, but I've started a second play through on that level and I've just gotten past the Hydra boss in the very beginning. Anyway, it's an amazing game and if you haven't picked it up already, I suggest you should give it a go. If anything, it might inspire you to torture something because you're the God of War and that's just how you roll.
Funniest shit EVER! -- D...D...Dear Dave -- Today's "Dear Dave" topics include: MTV star, Something Awful appearance, Mr. Driller pillow, Avital's booty, Freaky ass shit, A little creepy?, Jennie Lyn Bernston & In A Fix, Not drinking and feeling good?, T or A?, Good pr0n sites, My old ass friend, Hot ass bitches, The no booze thing, You are simply the man..., New band to check out, and Refusing to lose with the ladies. Yeah, excited, huh? Then go and read the crap and then send me some emails! Actually, don't email me. It's a lot of work to update "Dear Dave" so I'd rather not get back to doing them several times per week.
The Wedding Crashers' Diora Baird! -- Her name is Diora Baird and if you haven't already, it's about time you honor her with a jerk or two before you head off to dreamland or first thing in the morning when you wake up. If you're anything like me, you'll probably go for the double and do it both at the beginning and end of your day. Hell, maybe even a few times during the day, as well. The shoulder's getting worse...
-- The last thing I'd want to do is let it keep getting worse until it gets to the point where I'll have to have some kind of a surgery to fix the damn thing. What sucks is that work is gonna be extra busy this week, so I don't think I can really take any time off to go see my doctor or else I could start really falling behind on some important stuff.
Accident update -- A suspect allegedly involved in three hit-and-run collisions in San Francisco Sunday morning is in police custody, a San Francisco police officer reports. Prior to the collisions, the suspect had been involved in an argument with security guards, the officer said. The suspect drove off and struck a vehicle near Eddy and Taylor streets, police said. The suspect fled and at Sixth and Howard streets hit two motorcycles, the officer said. The two motorcyclists suffered serious injuries, police said. The suspect continued driving and hit a taxi at Sixth and Folsom streets, police said. Police arrested the suspect around 3:30 a.m., the officer reported. Although, there's no mention if the suspect was drunk or if there were any fatalities involved. I'm guessing it's probably a "no" for the fatalities because that'd be something worth mentioning, right? Well, I'm hoping that's the case and that the people are alive and not too badly hurt. Back to the 250s -- Well, as the subject suggests I'm back down to the 250s....but only barely as I'm now squishing the scales at 259.5 lbs, a drop of 3.5 lbs for the week. I'd love a few 5 lb drops per week, but I'll take anything as long a the number's going down, my clothes start to fit better, and my penis keeps growing in length and girth. At this rate, the little bitch is gonna be bigger than right arm before the end of August. Online too much?
-- Spent all day Sunday playing games
-- Anyway, after dismantling the Terps in the ACC Championship, I saved my progress and then simmed through that final week of the season to get to the award stuff to find out that I did NOT win Heisman. I could've understood that if I had lost to a QB of the top ranked team in the country because my player was a Freshman, but I didn't. I lost to Adrian Peterson, a sophomore for OU, who was ranked #6 at the time. I was like, wtf??? Not only did I have more than 3,000 more yards than him and 40 more TDs, but my team was the only unbeaten in the country and was ranked #1. What's more, the dude killed me in first place votes and the overall wasn't even that close. Kind of ticked off, I decided to re-load from the previous save point right after the ACC Championship and re-sim the last part to see if it made a difference. Peterson ended up getting a little more yards this time, now finishing with 1,300, but my guy won the trophy he so rightfully deserved and Peterson finished 5th, behind Tate of Iowa, my TE Olsen, and Leinhart of USC. It's weird as fuck that Peterson would win once, then finish 5th the second when his simmed stats at the end of the 2nd were actually higher, but I got the result I wanted and saved the bitch. I'll dismantle OSU tonight and try to put up triple digits on them to rub it in their faces.
Now this is what I'm talking 'bout! -- The only downer of the night was seeing the accident and the bad remains of a huge wreck between a cab and a SUV at the intersection next to the club. The cab was completely crunched and the SUV was in pretty fucked up shape, as well. They had to use the jaw's of life to get to people and I don't know if there were any fatalities or not...and can't seem to find out how to check up on such things. It's just scary thinking about it and how easily you can just die out there when you're doing the "right" thing and take a cab home instead of driving drunk only to be rammed by some drunk driver running a red light.
I feel like such a jerk taking this picture since there might be someone dead in there....but, I just couldn't resist. It's just some fucked up shit and I felt the need to share it. Seeing this shiit put a bit of a downer on an otherwise amazing and fun night. Seriously, what can you do about it? If you take a cab, you're fucked. If you drink and drive, you're fucked. If you drive yourself sober, you can be easily fucked as well. I guess the only thing you can do is not drink and drive yourself and just not think about it. Oh, by the way, I'm not even sure the driver of the SUV was drunk or that it was the one that ran the red light. It could've been the cab given how they drive in this city, but I'm just assuming it was the SUV driver's fault and that the driver was drunk. I just hope everyone involved made it out alive and I hate that I can't seem to find out about this anywhere. All I know is that it was one of the loudest crashing sounds I've ever heard, there was a lot of screeching and you could smell shit burning immediately after the noise.
A very boring as fuck sober night -- Oh, well, I'm hoping for better things tonight. Yesterday was a bad day because I was exhausted from a long and very stressing day and week of work and my body was sore from all the really intense working out I've been doing. I probably could've used the alcohol to get into the mood...or just got some rest and stayed in if I wasn't drinking. Anyway, I'm almost through the 3rd of my four weeks without the liquor.
Okay, so I found more to sell --
I even have a few things that I'm not intending to sell at the moment but could change my mind about down the road including my remote-controlled Calsonic Skyine, diecast Loctite Zexel Skyline, Ico viking hat, Britney Spears doll, autographed Hideo Kojima stuff, Parappa alarm clock, dancing and singing Ape Escape monkey, Nall plush, Vivi plus, Mr. Driller pillow and a few other items that I may just junk since they'll likely go for less than a buck. I also found out that I might be able to get my Sony Cybershot DSC-T1 lcd screen repaired for $75 and the LCD for my HP OmniBook XE2 repaired for something in the $50 range. Since I'm seeing the DSC-T1 going for anywhere from $125-$300, I can see it being worth it to repair it then sell it. And since I've seen a few of the same model of laptop go for $100+, I'm thinking it might be worth fixing and then selling that, as well, especially since I have a LOT of accessories for both that I could throw in to spice up the auction for free that would be complete junk otherwise if I didn't fix the items.
eBay auction update -- The Power Chutes are up because I've finally given up my dreams of walking-on to play football with the Miami Hurricanes. I figure I'm 32 years old so I better stick to making football videogames and give up my hopes of doing it for the 'Canes and the Dolphins. And since my 40-time isn't important in developing football games, I don't need to hold on to these anymore, especially since they've never been used.
The sad news is that I think that I've finally exhausted everything that I can sell that I'm willing to let go. I went through every single box in my closet and analyzed every single item on my shelves and the only stuff I have left is videogames, videogame systems, DVDs, old yearbooks, receipts dating back to 1991 (can probably throw some of that shit away), yearbooks, old high school and junior high letters, my high school diploma, and a few books. I could probably sell the books but the ones I have are going for mere pennies on eBay. I won't sell off the games in my videogame collection because the ones I have are all ones that I'd probably have regrets about selling afterwards and wouldn't get much for them anyway. The only game related stuff that I might still sell would be my Game Boy Advance and my games for it, but I'm probably going to hold on to them. I do have this old HP laptop that has an non-working LCD screen (it turns red then goes into safe mode) that I might sell if I can get it repaired for cheap and I do have my damaged Sony DSC-T1 camera that, if fixable, I might be able to auction off. I'm researching fixing both of those at the moment. I think I've finally gotten rid of everything that I don't use or don't need to hold on to...well, except for the 10+ year old receipts and credit card statements. It's about time!
Word @ shit just fitting better -- And if that's not enough to make me all giddy like a Catholic priest trapped in a strom shelter with a bunch of alter boys, I'm also seeing mucho results from the pills I've been taking to enlarge my penis. It's already 1/2 an inch longer and now too thick to fit in non-Magnum-sized condoms. My penis, you know, my cock, my throbbing manhood that hangs between my legs. Okay, I haven't taken any pills, but I felt like disgusting people out by making them think about my dick after such a serious, honest, touching and heartfelt update yesterday. Sorry, but that's just how I roll.
I've seen the light...again -- All my problems were caused by the result of my own actions and I was the only one who had the power fix it. My debt was caused by the fact that I spent way too much money on things for other people in addition to myself. When I would go through tough times, I liked to buy people gifts to make them happy because it was much easier to make someone else happy than to really deal with the fact that I needed to change my life. My weight problems were caused by the fact that I just ate too damn much and would use food to comfort me when I was feeling bad. Again, instead of dealing with the real issues, I would seek comfort in food just as I did with the gift buying. It was my poor health and not life hating me that led to the diabetes. And it was my inability to stand up for myself and stand by what I believed in that led to my arrest and felony conviction. I realized this back in September of 2002 when I started Body-for-Life to lose weight and started managing my finances and my life more intelligently. In less than a year, I dropped all the way down to 238 lbs and erased $30K+ worth of credit card debt. I had gotten my life back on track. However, for some reason I started getting back into bad habbits. It wasn't really too awful at first. While I had stopped losing weight, I was still doing a good job of saving and managing my finances. Then the EA thing happened. The proverbial shit hit the fan. I had been working dilligently on a game that I was putting my life into for the past couple of years. I cared about the product I was working on and believed in the people I was working with. If I didn't, I wouldn't have been putting in the 120+ hours/week during the last three to four months of each development cycle where I would put my entire life on hold and just dedicated all my efforts into trying to make the best NFL game possible. Then all of a sudden, we no longer had the NFL license, it was in EA's hands exclusively and all of a sudden I was in a state of limbo with regards to what I wanted to do. The game that I had put my heart and soul into was no more -- at least not in the same way that it had been for years -- and all of a sudden I had doubts about my future and I just didn't know what I wanted to do with life. My reaction to this? I started straying from the diet moreso than I had ever in the past few years. I would find comfort in food and continuously go through cycles of binging and then starving to make up for the binges when I would realize what I did. I would try and to do overly nice gestures to friends or people that I barely even knew in order to try and make their lives happy because with the EA/NFL thing I was at a complete loss at what I could do to fix my life, so I tried my best to start fixing everyone else's lives. I exhausted my savings and started building up my credit card debt again. I also started drinking more and more because when I was drunk, I didn't care about what problems I was facing. And it wasn't just drinking while I was at clubs and having a good time with friends, it was mostly drinking at home to the point where I would just pass the hell out...usually before finishing watching the FIRST DVD that Toole and I would pull out to watch. There was even this one night where I invited a guy who reads the site that was in town to visit and even though he got there rather early, he had to be turned away because I was passed out drunk by 7:30PM before we even started watching any of the movies we planned to. My drinking, my eating and my spending on others had gotten out of control and I was well on my way down the same path that hounded me throughout my entire 20s. I'm not going to let that happen again. I'm not going to let my life waste away while I have already proven that I have the power to control it. I am going to get my finances back under control and stop trying to help others when I need to be concentrating on myself. I am going to stick with the healthy eating and the consistent exercising until I reach my goal weight and beyond. I am going to stop using food, alcohol, or helping others as a way to try and comfort me instead of just dealing with my problems head on. I'm going to do the best with what I can with the situation at work and dedicate myself to making the best games possible, whether or not we have the NFL license. I am going to keep people around me that bring out the best in me and stay away from those that do nothing but bring me down. Well, thanks for listening. This is one of the rare entries that's something that you'd expect from a normal blog or journal, but for some reason I felt the need to spill my guts and open up. Maybe there'll be at least one person out there that's dealing with similar issues that might see the light because of this. It was actually the reading of someone else's problems in their journal recently that opened my eyes to the fact that I was the one that was bringing myself down and not these uncontrollable events that I had no power to change. Always remember this: you and only you can make your life better. Regardless of what obstacles life throws your way, it's how you react to these challenges and grow from them that will define you as a person and help make your life better. All you can do is live your own life the right way and hope for the best.
A sensual & seductive beauty -- One such lady is the amazingly sexy Nichole Kristina who is being honored now as my latest Babe of the Week. She also happens to be one of many delightful individuals that I'm hoping to get to meet come September when I'm planning to vacation in Florida to spend time with Brandon while also checking out the Miami/FSU game in Tally and at possibly one Miami Dolphins home game. I'm pretty damn confident that it will be a wild and extremely fun week. The Engergizer bunny -- Anyway, I'm loving how great I've been feeling and I'm glad I decided to take a break from drinking. While I do plan to start back up in August, I think I'm going to limit it to Friday and Saturday nights except in special occasions and limit my total alcohol consumption even when I do drink. I figure just getting buzzed enough where I feel great and am having fun should do the trick and there's no need to keep pouring the poison down my throat until my body decides to pass out so I can get the blood flowing better to my brain. Buy huge lot of 104 music CDs on eBay! --
Alcoholic my ass -- Well, bitches, I've made it through two weeks and two damn weekends of partying, including trips to Ruby Skye on both Friday and Saturday night this past weekend and a Sunday morning trip to End Up after Ruby Skye where we chilled until 10 or 11 AM. Sure, I was bored as fuck Friday night and couldn't get into the whole club scene despite the excellent music, but a lot of rest Saturday helped me get in a much better mood for Saturday night and I was able to have fun that was more akin to what you'd expect from a drunken Dave Z. So, I've made it through two weeks and only have two more weekends of partying to go. And to all the non-believers, fuck you! Oh, yeah, I'll have the photos from the past two weekends up soon. But keep in mind that sober Dave isn't quite as photo happy as drunk Dave can be. Maybe I need the sauce...
-- Nevertheless, I'm happy with my 2nd straight solid week and won't let the scale deter my motivation to move onward with the no alcohol in July and the continuing of my healthy eating and daily workouts. I'll just be happy with the fact that I feel a lot better than I did a few weeks ago, am walking taller and just feel more fit already. My party shirts are already starting to fit a little better than they were just a little while ago.
I love hot Italian women -- Lethargic no more! -- For the past few months, I would workout in the morning and actually feel drained and worn out afterwards -- which shouldn't be the case. But after this morning's cardio workout, I feel like I'm ready to run a damn marathon or something. I'm walking around faster, there's a little hop in my step, and I'm just in a chipper, happy-go-lucky, I'd fuck anything kinda mood. I love it!
My new eBay auctions --
I am also toying the with the idea of selling some of my autographed memorabilia. I have two Metal Gear Solid 2 items that are framed and signed by Hideo Kojima and I have a Grandia for PSX that has been autographed as well. However, I'm thinking these are things that I may regret selling even though I probably could get decent money for them. My gut is telling me to keep them until I'm about to be homeless or something.
Hi, my name is Dave and I'm an alcoholic!
-- It wasn't too difficult mainly because I've been sick as fuck all week with a bad cough, congestion and a sore throat. Nevertheless, I did go to Ruby Skye this past Friday night with Toole and did so completely sober. It was a unique experience. I don't know if it was because I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone because I wasn't drinking or the fact that I just saw very little in the way of women I thought were worth talking to (maybe also a result of the lack of alcohol). If it's the latter, I'm actually kind of scared of the whole beer goggles thing because I noticed more buttafaces and more tranny's at Ruby Skye than most nights... I'm hoping it was just an off night! The good news is that I still managed to have a little fun and I actually fully remember the names, faces, and numbers of the women that I did talk to. This means that I can actually call them back if I want to this time because I'll know who they are. I also saw some of the women that I got numbers from before and was able to help figure out some of the mystery names in my phone which helps give me a better idea of who the remaining mystery numbers might belong to. I guess it's worth doing it up sober every now and then. Anyway, the point of not drinking was to help out with my diet and it served its purpose. I only had one bad day -- Thursday night -- but I did well enough every other day and night to drop 4 lbs for the week and I'm now back down to 264.0 lbs. I'm hoping for a good quality week this week so I can possibly get back down to the 250s by next Sunday. Oh, by the way, to all of you fuckers that laughed at me when I said I was gonna give up drinking for the rest of July and that I wouldn't be able to make it through the weekend, pfffffffft! In your face, bitches!
A few more looks at my stunning friend -- Hangin' with Avital -- Oh, by the way, just in case you check out the pics and are wondering about some things, most of them were staged. There wasn't a plethora of making out going on and I wasn't really sleeping in the bed with her in the photos you'll see towards the end. It was just a lot of really drunk guys and girls having a good time at her newly furnished apartment in Hollywood. Alcohol-free for 4 1/2 days! --
My dearest Dave --
My very beautiful friend,
Avital -- You can expect Elle's time to come within the next four to six weeks I' hoping, but Jordanna's will have to wait a lot longer since she hasn't done any modeling yet and I still need to get some crap setup for her whenever she gets back from Prague. I also have another friend that should be in SF this August that I'm hoping to get a modeling shoot for who will also surely blow you away! Silly old lady drivers -- No more alcohol in July?
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The DJs rocked (Gabriel & Dresden), there were a lot of fine ladies in the mix, and the peeps I was spending most of my time with -- Toole, Michelle, Carlee & Maya -- were just a blast to be around. Also met a bunch of other new lovely ladies who I'll hopefully be seeing more of down the road. Anyway, I went crazy and took about 170 photos over the course of the weekend that you ought to give a look. Oh, by the way, HAPPY 4TH OF JULY everyone!!!! PS - I'm toying with the idea of completely giving up drinking alcohol for the rest of the month of July. We'll see how long it lasts, but I'm thinking about it with complete seriousness mainly because I tend to eat after I get drunk and that hasn't been helping with the diet these past two weeks, particularly with me drinking like five nights a week.
The infamous video! --
Future Babe of the Week?
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We also filmed a video of me heading down the elavator of our apartment building and talking to everyone that I bumped into. It's some hilarious shit and if Toole is able to compress it nicely and find a place to host it, I'll put it up for your comedic enjoyment. What's extra entertaining about the whole thing is that I wasn't able to get the waterproof eye make-up off with soap in the shower so I had to go to work with eyeliner on and painted fingernails and toenails. Ah, the things I'll do when I'm drunk... For more...check out the Archives © 2002 by Dave Zdyrko. All Rights Reserved. Without limiting the rights under copyrights reserved herein, no part of this web site may be reproduced in whole or in part in any form or medium without express written permission of the authors. ™ and © for all products, characters, and indicia related thereto which are contained herein are owned by the companies who market or license those products. If you have any comments or questions, please e-mail the Webmaster. | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
Huge
Lot of 104 Music CDs! Rock, Rap, R&B, Pop, Country
Top
Gun (1998, DVD)
Abu
plush toy stuffed monkey from Walt Disney's Aladdin 
Takara
Choro-Q Lancer Evolution (Evo) VIII (8) No. 66
Crimson
Skies: High Road to Revenge (Microsoft Xbox)
Fear
Effect 2 Retro Helix red collectible candle
Ricky
Williams white jersey series 4 Mcfarlane figure
Star
Wars Empire Strikes Back Rebel Snow Speeder toy
Star
Wars MILLENIUM FALCON toy w/Han Solo & Chewie
Austin
Powers talking action figure with stand
Tomy
Bit Char-G Loctite Zexel Skyline GT-R rc car
Magic
Knight Rayearth dolls toys Umi Fuu Hikaru Mokono
Magic
Knight Rayearth mini figure Umi Fuu Hikaru Mokono
Sexy
figure of Sega's Honey (Candy) in Fighting Vipers
Power
Systems Power Chute for speed resistance training
Gray PS2 Sweatshirt (Size L) 
Squaresoft The Bouncer Black hooded sweatshirt (Size XL)
Blue Sony Portable Mini-Disc Walkman with extra Mini-Discs
My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge CD
Trisha Yearwood - Songbook: A Collection of Hits CD
The Killers - Hot Fuss CD
Incredible Crisis T-shirt (Size L)
Fun,
fun, fun 4th of July weekend --
